March 30, 2009 at 9:37 am (General life)
Tags: exercise, health, health and fitness, life
So I’m on the mend, asthma still suffering and I am a giant sloth. I have no worked out in any way, shape or form in a week. I feel it for sure. So tonight, I’m off to the gym with my trainer and while I will take it easy (the lungs are not entirely happy yet), I need to do SOMETHING.
Hopefully, that something is not keel over and die.
March 24, 2009 at 3:51 pm (General life)
Tags: cold and flu, health, sick
I haven’t been sick for a long time (not counting that food poisoning incident earlier this year) so I forgot a lot of the lovely things about being sick, namely:
Okay, enough sad sacking it for me. I probably should eat something since it’s been a while and drink more water. Maybe stop working and get some rest too.
Bah – and here I was all getting into the rhythm with running!
March 23, 2009 at 7:11 pm (General life)
Tags: health, life, sick
I’ve been feeling a little run down for the past week or so – I figured it was my asthma rearing its ugly head as it does every season change. I upped my medication, dealt with it and kept on moving and grooving. My body did not like that.
Last night, my body was aching and sore. I put it down to my new-found fascination with running and thought “okay, rest day tomorrow”. Little did I know my body had more than a rest day in mind.
So I got into bed around 10:30 or so – feeling wiped and thinking that I’d get a good night’s sleep. Nope. I was freezing cold – had to layer on my sheet, my duvee, track pants, a t-shirt and a sweatshirt and I was still cold. I tossed and turned for about 2 hours before I got up and took some cold and flu meds. Then proceeded to get hot – stripped off all the above. Then I was cold. Then hot. Can you see where this is going?
In my delirium, I was convinced that today was March 30 and I was a week behind on my work. So my mind was racing. Obviously, I couldn’t go into work but I didn’t have my work with me. Who could send it to me? Could anyone else do it? Did I know where it was? OMG, I’m going to get fired. So, again, no sleep.
I got up at 4am to email a few people and get it all off my mind and that’s when I realised that it was only March 23. I was fine. So I got back into bed around 4:45 and had the best 1:15 hours of sleep of the night. Then I got up, felt like shit, showered, couldn’t eat, and stumbled to the bus. I made it 3/4 of the way to work, concentrating on not throwing up and falling over. That’s when I thought “you idiot. Go home”. So I did. I got off the bus, crossed the road and got on the bus going the other way.
I spent the day sleeping mainly. Feeling a bit better but still like shit. And this is when I wish I lived at home. MOM! Living by yourself when sick really sucks.
So body, you got yourself your rest day. I got no more rest days in the future – this better be enough!
March 23, 2009 at 1:44 pm (fitness)
Tags: exercise, fitness
I had an epiphany this week.
Every training session, I bitch out my trainer for pushing me so hard (yes, I know I’m paying for it but still). He keeps changing things up and there are very few sessions where I don’t give him a death stare or two when he tells me what we’re doing.
He was away last week and left me a solo program to do – no weights or sets included, just said “oh, you know what you can do”. So I did it.
And I hurt.
And it’s all my fault. I increased weights and did more sets. I pushed myself.
So really, it’s not him, it’s me. I should be bitching myself out every session.
Damn, it feels good to know that I push myself hard!
(Sorry for the short post – I’m at home, sick with something that kept me up all night last night and I’m not straying far from my bed!)
March 17, 2009 at 12:47 pm (General life, fitness)
Tags: exercise, fitness, health
I spent this past weekend with extended family in New York for a family function. It was tons of fun but so exhausting. From Friday afternoon to Sunday evening, it was go, go go and talk, talk, talk. I’m not used to it! I live alone, so when I get home after work, it’s usually quiet time. Not with my family.
I did notice something interesting though. I was able to dance at the function on Saturday night for ages – not tired, not sweaty, not aware of anything but “hey, this song is cool”. My cousins? Not so much. They’re much bigger than I am – taller and heavier. They were sweating and tired and aware of the “lack of air flow” and the heat in the room. They were sitting at the tables for a lot more of the night.
The only thing I was aware of was the fact that my feet were hurting just a bit but I looked good so it was worth it 
It’s something I never thought of but something that can definitely motivate us more than simply being healthy. It’s the little everyday things that are easier when you’re fitter and healthier. It’s the things you don’t think about when you can do them, but that you’re hyper-aware of when you can’t.
Since I started on this exercise and health kick, I’ve noticed that I can:
What benefits have you noticed?
March 12, 2009 at 9:57 am (General life, exercise, fitness)
Tags: exercise, fitness, frustration, health and fitness, stress, Working out
This week has been another tough week in a long line of tough weeks. I’m constantly frustrated at the moment – which is an improvement from the constant depression of the last few weeks, but still not the best feeling in the world.
Frustrated for a number of reasons:
It all came to a head last night when I realised that another day had passed sans paycheque. I changed into my workout clothes, put on the 30 Day Shred and whipped through Level 1. Note to self: time to move to Level 2 when you still have frustrated energy after 20 minutes with Ms Michaels!
So, still annoyed. Had a chat with a work friend about it and got off the phone still annoyed. So I got dressed and hot-footed it to the gym. All the treadmills with TVs were taken (grrrrr) so I jumped onto an elliptical and pounded out 40 minutes while watching America’s Next Top Model.
And yes, I felt 100 times better after sweating off the frustration. Still broke, still busy, but less stressed. Yes, I did eat some cookies as well but the workouts were the stress release.
I woke up this morning feeling a lot more rested than I have felt for a while. While the stress and frustration is still there, my body can cope with it better.
And tonight I’m torching it at the gym again.
March 11, 2009 at 9:53 am (General life, Self-Esteem)
Tags: body image, diet, health, weight, weightloss
For the last little while, I’ve been aware that my scale wasn’t exactly accurate (ie it would give me wildly different results depending on if I held my breathe or thought junk food thoughts) but it was nice to see the numbers as low as they were. But it wasn’t enough.
I wanted a scale that told me my weight in increments of 0.1 lbs instead of only 0.5. I wanted a scale that did more – told me my body fat % and hydration levels. I’d outgrown my scale and it was time to move on.
I bought a new scale on the weekend. It’s fancy glass and digital display and it tells me my weight, my body fat and %, my hydration levels and more. It is super cool.
It is also 3lbs heavier than my old scale.
Logically, I know I didn’t gain 3lbs overnight. Logically, I know that my pants are in fact fitting looser and my belly is flatter. I know all this logically but my mind is focussed on the NUMBER. The great big hulking NUMBER lurking in the corner of my bedroom, next to the mirror.
I tell myself that I’m getting stronger and fitter and I’m as skinny as I was when the number was lower but lying to me. I tell myself that the NUMBER doesn’t matter. But it does. In my mind, it does.
It does because my mother asks me about my weight EVERY TIME we talk
It does because I was so proud of myself for getting into a lower decade and now I’m not there.
It just does.
It’s all psychological but it’s a strong hold. And I feel sad that it’s there. I always wanted to not be my mother on this – not be held to ransom by a number. And here I am, turning into my mother.
March 8, 2009 at 2:54 pm (General life, Weekly roundup)
Tags: clothes, emotions, friends, health and fitness, weekend round up
Firstly, did you remember to change your clocks – we’re springing forward y’all!
I feel jet-lagged without the fun of a vacation.
An update is due though:
Possible outfit for family festivities
March 5, 2009 at 7:56 pm (General life)
Tags: depression, General life, Rants and Vents
I’m pretty low at the moment – homesick to the extreme, tired, miserable, body-conscious and over winter. Hence the lack of posts.
I need to get out of this hole. Feel like I have no support network around – everyone’s super busy with work stuff and winter hermit behaviour and it’s too easy to hole up at home. I found myself thinking about chucking it all in and going home this morning. Obviously, I’m not going to do it but I seriously considered it.
I haven’t felt this low for a long time and I hate it. Usually exercise pulls me out but alas, it’s not working its magic at the moment. I need a gym buddy I think – my last one gave up on exercise and moved away from the city so I’ve seen her once in the past 3 months. Any volunteers?
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