Aiming for perfection sets us up for failure. That’s a blanket statement and a half, I know. I also know they say you should aim for the stars and all that. And yes, I’m all for setting long term goals like that but perfection? That’s never going to happen. We’re human.
I’ve never been a fan of diets and nutritionists etc. and yet here I am, seeing a nutritionist. Huh? When I signed up for more personal training sessions, I got 2 free nutrition appointments and I thought Why not? I hadn’t lost as much of the fat as I would have liked so this could help.
In the 2 months since I started seeing Mr Nutritionist I’ve lost 8 lbs. That’s awesome for me, considering my body holds onto fat like we’re living in a depression. The fact that I have PCOS doesn’t help but I’m not making excuses really. I may not have been eating terribly, but I was eating a muffin everyday and justifying chips and snacks and not planning at all. I would get to work and be reliant on whatever the cafeteria was serving as my meal. And we all know how good cafeteria food is for weight loss!
So in the past 2 months, what’s changed? I plan my meals (most of the time) and cook enough for leftovers for lunch. I pack a lunch bag with snacks for the day so I’m not tempted by the vending machine (most of the time). I drink 2-3 litres of water a day. I drink green tea instead of coffee or normal tea so I don’t use sugar or sweeteners. I’ve switched to brown rice and whole wheat or brown rice pasta. I eat protein at every meal.
In short, I’ve overhauled my entire diet and I’m pretty proud of myself. No, I’m not perfect (I’m still working on the cutting down on chocolate thing) but I never set out to be.
Mr Nutritionist doesn’t seem to realise that.
I had an appointment with him on Tuesday where I proudly told him how things were going. I told him that instead of eating sugar loaded cereal with milk for breakfast, I was having oatmeal with protein powder. His response: What kind of oats? Quick oats are bad. You should be eating steel cut oats. Now, I know that but I’m looking at the babysteps here. I still need something that’s not going to take a lot of time to prepare, otherwise I’m going to end up skipping it. But some of my elation was dampened.
Then I told him how I had switched to brown rice pasta instead of regular pasta – it’s about 200 calories per serving instead of 375+. He asked how big my servings were. I told him that I was having maybe 3/4 of a cup or a cup in total. 200 calories, lower in carbs and gluten and sugar etc free. His response: your serving should be 1/2 cup at most. Unless you’re training. Not more. You’re eating too much.
I’m eating too much?! Dude, I lost 4 lbs since you saw me last. I’m at my lowest weight in over 5 years. Obviously I’m doing something right here so fug off.
I felt really low about it all until Wednesday, when I told my trainer. His response: 1 cup of pasta is fine. Regular oatmeal is fine – obviously steel cut would be better but let’s be realistic. You’re doing great. Maybe add a little more protein to the pasta but otherwise it seems to be working!
And I realised that yes, it seems to be working. So screw you Mr Nutritionist and screw your perfection. I’m not a robot. I’m a person with cravings and that’s never going to change. I can’t beat myself up over oats or pasta. So I’m not going to.