I wrote a whole post ranting and venting about a client and a situation and my complete and utter frustration. I detailed the whats and whys and I complained and threw my toys out the cot.
Then I deleted it.
I don’t feel better but it’s not worth it. I may not name names and companies and clients may not be social media savvy but they will be one day and I know people have found my blog before and they’ll find it again. So I pressed delete. I’ve had a mini-rant to the Boy and I’ll call my parents to rant and vent some more.
Suffice to say everyday is a learning experience.
In yoga-flavoured news, I bit the bullet and attended my first yoga class at my gym.
Initial thoughts on walking in: Everyone knows each other. I know nobody. I could leave now and nobody would know.
But I didn’t. I grabbed a mat and set up in the back corner, figuring I could watch everyone else a bit too. That was dashed when I realised that everyone was setting up against the walls and the instructor’s mat was in the middle. Which was good in that she could see us all and we could see her.
She was a little late due to traffic so when she got there, we got done to poses immediately. The atmosphere in the class wasn’t friendly or warm. I was very aware of being the newbie and unaware of the poses and order of things. But you know, I got over that pretty quickly. The instructor came by and corrected or supported me once or twice and I could follow her directions fairly well. It didn’t set me off with excitement and I’m still getting used the idea of a class where I don’t walk out feeling drained.
I also realised how tight my hamstrings are. I knew they were tight but they had loosened up from where they were the other week. I realised tonight how much more I have to go. My balance is awful, but I knew that. And I still managed to enjoy it actually.
In some way yoga was what I needed today and in other ways I needed something vigorous and ANGRY because I still feel like I have such FRUSTRATION to get out. But I’m trying to focus on the calm and breath right now.
And there’s another class on Sunday and I think I may just be there. But I’m still looking forward to my run tomorrow to get this frustration out.
Oh, and our outdoor furniture arrives tomorrow!